The Budget & Life: Catching Up!

Motherhood is phenomenal. I can't say enough about the reward of caring for Xan and having him in our life. He's redefined everything in the most incredible way. I will speak honestly. It isn't at all the burden that I thought would scare me away from having children at any point. I was terrified in my 20's and into my 30's. Meeting John changed all the rules. And when we started talking about having kids I was honest about my fears. But knowing that we were doing this together finally sunk in. I wasn't doing this alone. And we dove in. Fact is... It's liberated me.

Let me explain. Before Xan I was a planner. Scheduled, organized and knew exactly where and what I was doing. When anything upset those plans (getting laid off, mistakes I made, or any proverbial wrench) I would sometimes tail-spin. It would really upset me as I tried so hard to get back on track. That 'track' is what I've learned, with Xan and John's help... doesn't mean jack. Not without them.

Love: Office Supplies

Well, Monday came and went now didn't it? Monday seemed to go on forever! Only because Xan would not take a nap. Those days are my longest. He was in a really happy and silly mood in the morning. But as the day went on he got grumpier and grumpier... Mostly because he was tired. Mid scream around 7pm he finally succumbed to a nap until 830pm. Hey, you gotta take what you can get!
He didn't fall asleep until 11pm... And it was on the sofa with me. I was holding him after his bottle and I didn't want to move him given the day we had. So we slept there until 430am. Well, he did. I napped in and out as he moved around a little. I love snuggling him and feeling his little head under my chin. It's the single greatest moment in my life with him at this age right now... well, besides the new smiles and attempts at giggles!

Ahhh... the sweetest face!